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So, I'm on a weeks staycation, and thought about starting on that webcomic...but can't get the enthusiasm up to do it. Everytime I start to draw it comes out all wrong. I can see what it looks like in my head, like the completed page, but it just turns to crap on the screen. Gets me even more down to think I turned 40 this year; I don't know how much longer I'll be around before my body goes to crap on me. As depressing as not being able to do what I want is, the idea that if I croak all these stories and charcters in my head will go with me is even worse.
Trying to move ahead
So, I'm trying to move ahead with my big project comic. However, I just can't seem to make any progress. It's feels strange that I noticed that I had done a character bio back in 2016, and hadn't made any updates since then. The story has progressed so much in those 6~7years, and at this point I just want to get out however I can. So I might do something soon as just text just to get it out. I feel bad that I'm picking up new followers when I don't put out content regularly. There's alot of stuff I'm drawing and working on that hasn't gotten to the point I would want to post it. But, I wanted everyone watching to know I appreciate it.
Cleaning Up
You may notice some of my stuff missing. Some person decided to flag a 2 year old picture as porn, and it got deleted. I decided to be proactive and save this person the trouble. The thing was, the picture wasn't that bad, I had even put a censor bar in. It makes me somewhat sad that someone does this to me, who is a nobody, but there are popular artists who post more explicit things than me, and they never get flagged.
Still here
I know I haven't updated in awhile, just wanted to let people know I'm still here. I've been playing Warframe, as well as Monster Hunter Stories. That and being depressed seemed to have put a damper on my creativity. Hopefully I'll have something soon.
bummed
I'm beginning to wonder if I'm bi-polar or something...I thought I was starting to do something good, but now I hate it again...it's like I know what I have to do, it's almost in my grasp but it keeps on slipping away. It's like everytime I take a step forward artistically I take 2 back. I've been on DA for 7yrs now and there are people who have only been here 1 that have twice as many watchers as I do. Maybe it's time for me to just admit my art is ugly or something and move on.
As you might have guess I'm feeling really depressed today.
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Life is what you make of it man, if you make it a prison term, it becomes one. So take heart, man! You have great skills drawing, and you should be thankful of that!